Errr is it a test for me? But why? -.- Eh kau jgn risau lh, kalau aku tkda jodoh dgn dia, aku takkan kahwin dgn dia. I'm just accept what God already plan for me. But kita hanya merancang. Kalau lah manusia diberikan mukjizat untuk mengetahui siapa jodoh mereka kan bagus :) Kalau aku boleh tahu dia bukan jodoh aku, dah lama aku menjauhkan diri dari dia. Tapi kalau aku bercinta bagai nak rak pun dgn dia, kalau tak sampai jodoh pun nak buat mcm mana. Tu yg boleh buat kau happy enn. Since that incident, until now my heart not in peace. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. But lots of my friend told me to be patient, kay I'm being patient and just be silence :) I love him too much. I can't imagine if I could love without him. Maybe skg aku ckp mcm ni, tapi pada masa akan dtg kita taktahu mcm mana keadaan nya kan. Skg mungkin bg dia hanya aku yg terbaik dan disayangi, tapi bila aku tkda, mungkin Tuhan akan menemukan dia dgn seorang yg lebih baik dan sesuai untuk dia. Aku gembira kalau mcm tu :) Then same goes to me. But deep in my heart, I hope it won't happen, God please hear what I'm says :'( Now I'm so down with what was happened. Mereka tidak tahu disebalik senyuman dan gelak ketawa aku, and this all really really made me down! People will rate you, hate you, break you, but how strong you stand is what makes you. Please God give me a strength, I need a strength so that I will stand with your test. Hmm. Mmg kita tak kawal org supaya suka kan kita atau tak, terpulang pada hak masing-masing. Tapi kenapa mesti memulakan sesuatu yg tak patut dibangkitkan? Hello, it's all damn ridiculous kay! Now truly I said that I'm really really down. I need you bie, don't walk away from me please even there's something prevent our relation :(
26 Sept 2011
